Wednesday, December 15, 2010

waiting for karma is so not my thing.

I hate the fact that just by being pretty in this world, half your battles are already won.

What about the rest of us who have to work our ass off to get what we want?

They say karma's a bitch but I've yet to see it come back to some people who deserve to have it boomerang back so fast it slaps the bejeezus and knocks the wind and socks off her.

I'm waiting for karma to make its much anticipated appearance.

And I hate waiting.

Monday, December 13, 2010

I'm standing still.

Is it enough to just love a man?

Can his love tide you through everything?

Can his love tide you through emotional upheavals?
Religious turmoil?
Familial obligations?

Every time I think it's smooth sailing, that I am actually happy, I come to a dead end. If I look back, I see the bumps and humps I've overcome but all I have right now after all the hard work, is a dead end.

I see so many people cheering me on, all on the other side. But are these the people I WANT to cheer me on? What about those I've inadvertently left behind to pursue this journey? Why aren't they taking out the poms poms and giving me the support I need?

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I find it hypocritical when someone tells me they only date men of a certain religion. A friend said to me "I will never date a man who is not Christian. He does not have to go to church or be very religious. Religion is very important to me. I do not go to church but I pray and I listen to sermons."

Does that make sense to you?

Religion is important to her only to the point of, he needs to be Christian. He may not need to believe in Christianity, he may not need to practice Christianity, he may not need to go to church or say his prayers. It's okay as long as he is born Christian.

So, what was the point again? How is religion important to her? If it were important to you, it would matter if he is Christian merely by birth or if he were a practicing staunch Christian, right?

And if I myself am not very religious, when did religion become so important to me?

Most wars in history are started by men and their need to assert their religion (which of course ties up with greed and power). And so many of us say we're moderate, and so many of us say we are understanding and we live in harmony, but truly we harbor racism under our facades.

Why do so many people aspire and yearn for a something, which even if it were very flawed, is still a something which is better than another.

" Between fight and flight
Is the blind man's sight
And a choice that's right."

- Jewel, Standing Still.

Friday, December 10, 2010

Please say you're not going out looking like that.

Every time I stumble upon a "fashionable" blog, I oftentimes think they look like a 12 year old. Whose parents were too poor to buy her clothes that actually looked normal so they gave her hand me downs and made her roll her jeans up so it wouldn't drag on the floor.

Seriously. pulling a tank top that barely covers your bellybutton, squeezing into a pair of badly fitted jeans and topping it all off with horrid Doc Marts and a questionable boxy bag, does not a fashionista make you.